Jacob finally got to sleeping in his own bed and through the night a few days ago. But I found myself waking up in the middle of the night (1) worried that something was wrong because he was quiet/sleeping, (2) habit from the previous week. I have to say I did really enjoy cuddling/sleeping with Jacob even though he rolls around, kicks, sits up and cries for a second. As happy as I was he was better and able to sleep by himself again, I missed the cuddling.
I was home Thursday and Friday with Jacob since the nanny was still out sick. I was actually supposed to go to Cancun with a few girlfriends but for one reason or another, I had to cancel on the trip.
It worked out since Jeff couldn’t get off work and Jacob was still glued to my butt. I could not leave the room without him calling out for me. He wouldn’t sit in his booster chair and had to sit on my lap for every meal. I could barely separate myself from him long enough for Jacob to take a bath. Jeff could not even read him a bedtime story or put him down to sleep.
I began to wonder what is going to happen when our nanny is back to work next week. Is he going to freak out? I am dreading going back to work as well because as much as I could use some ‘me’ time, I know I will miss him. I also wondered, I wonder if I could be a stay-at-home mom (SAHM)? I don’t think I could. As much as I love playing with him, going to the library for Storytime with him, taking him to music class, I know some day very soon he will need more stimulation and guidance than what the nanny or his parents could provide.
And as much as I complain about work, I do love my job and my profession and am happy to do what I do for work. There is no other job (in or out of medicine) that I would rather do!
I took him to a nearby preschool for a tour during the week and he LOVED all the new toys, the students and teachers, the new environment. The School Director thought he was ready. Unfortunately, there was only a waiting list and who knew how long that waitlist was. So, I’ll have to keep looking to see what schools are available and how this would work out with our nanny and schedule.
Thankfully, this week will be a short week. My baby cousin, Andrew, is coming to town! and then next week we’re on vacation to sunny Hawaii!!! I know it makes no sense to complain about the cold winter weather here in San Diego when it’s 70 degrees. It rained and was grey all last week! It was perfect for wanting to cuddle, play and watch TV/movies indoors.
Happy Monday, everyone! It is a holiday today, Martin Luther King Jr. Day!