Work has been getting busy with the usual end of the year busy-ness. I’ve been working long days and was preparing for Thanksgiving and BAM! it’s already December 14! Where did the time go?
Jeff’s parents came for Thanksgiving and they stayed with us. We have a 2-bedroom so they stayed in Jacob’s room and Jacob’s crib was in our room. Jacob loved it- he loved to wake up in the middle of the night and want to sleep with me! I secretly loved to cuddle with him but also wished I could sleep! Sometimes I’d get very melodramatic and think ‘I can’t live like this!!’ when Jacob wanted to play instead of sleep. I get nostalgic about my pre-baby Turkey Trots with the last few Thanksgivings. They were so much fun to wake up early, get your jog on before stuffing your face with Bloody Mary, Mimosas or champagne and food. Sigh. I do miss the turkey trot but I also love sleeping in more. We went on a family walk in the morning instead.
This is the first holiday season without my grandmother . We took a family trip to Chicago this past weekend to see my family before the end of the year, visit my grandmother and celebrate my friend’s daughter’s 1st birthday (Dohl in Korean). I was dreading going from 70+ degree Santa Ana warm weather to 20+ degree cold weather.
In my usual hot mess fashion these days, I could not find my sleeping bag jacket aka long North Face jacket. I bought this in Chicago during residency so the jacket is probably 10 years old and I definitely have gotten my money’s worth from it! I thought I had packed it away in the winter clothes section but that was nowhere to be found. I turned the house upside down looking for it but to no avail. I wonder where it went! Thankfully my mom has the same coat (awesome Christmas present for a family member!) so I was able to wear hers.
Jacob had no problem with the cold. He didn’t want to wear his mittens. It was super cute to see him go outside, be silent from the cold and then watch his cheeks turn rosy red. It was so fun to snuggle and kiss him and warm him up. We spent the weekend seeing friends, driving back and forth in the suburbs and city and eating lots of delicious food! We stayed downtown and had fun walking around downtown seeing all the Christmas lights.
The saddest and most joyous part of my trip was being able to visit with my grandmother. I miss her so much and wanted nothing but to hug her and show her how much Jacob has grown. I still have flashbacks and moments of anxiety when I think of how she passed away but I have to take a deep breath, think of her in Heaven with Jesus and her husband and try to keep things positive.
Now we are back home in San Diego and back to real life. Work has been a few long days but thankfully I am not working tomorrow. There is lots to do- Christmas shopping, send out Christmas cards, organize my life to prepare for the new year. I will update more about work and life soon. In the meantime, stay warm and hydrated, Friends!